What Does War Got To Do With It

Center Figure

Center Figure, Mescalito Spirals

As a Toltec, we use the term warrior to define the path that we are on daily. The warrior’s way, the spiritual warrior, the warrior of intent, these are some of the qualifiers that are present to soften the term warrior. The term in English goes back to a time of great conflict in Europe between tribes. Warriors were active participants in the act of war, conflict, and aggression. In the east, the term for warrior actually meant to serve or attend to a leader. The term from many indigenous tribes meant to provide and is more in kind with hunter. So how does this stack up with the Toltec path?

After years of walking the path, there is just no better term for the process of becoming a Toltec. A person passes from childhood, a time of receiving the programming of our culture, to adulthood with a significant emotional event. The pain of that event ties the individual to their path, their purpose. For many traditions, this time of passage was related to a quest. The individual looks carefully at the sum total of what they have received and choses what they are going to become. So often the purpose of this passage is to diminish the self-importance typical in childhood and train the attention to commit to something greater than the self.

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Family and the Art of Recapitulation

mother-child-1938-paul-klee_watercolorWhat warrior of freedom does not run into the difficulties associated with family.  As Don Juan noted, we reject the contract that our parents are raising us to be food for the predator.  This contract made eons ago is passed down through a host of patterns and default behaviors called culture.  The job of family and our parents is to raise us to survive in that culture, that limited controlled perception of reality.  The hidden agenda is to fixate our assemblage points on patterns that are comfortable, rituals that are celebrated, and values that distract us from freedom.  The main foundation of most parental agenda is to raise children to take on their pattern (narcissism at its finest – reproduce our self importance in our children) and pass it along to successive generations.  It is a sustainer’s mentality.

Warriors of freedom are indebted to the world for this life is a perfect scenario for us to practice and become free.  To do so we align with freedom, intent and the creative impulse of the universe to constantly challenge the pattern for newer and deeper means for awareness to express itself.  This creator’s mentality is always at odds with the sustainer’s mentality and nowhere is this more evident than in the stories and patterns, which were hard wired into our brains at a young age by our natal experiences.

Thus the warrior erases personal history.  This means going after the energy, which is trapped in us from a young age through patterning and repetition.  We can move through recapitulation by following energetic lines of patterns to their roots.  We can recapitulate by focusing on parents default behaviors that we have picked up.  We can recapitulate by seeing our own behavior as inherited experiences.  But we can never blame, that is the victim mentality and the realm of the predator.  Our familial culture has no awareness of these patterns.  If we become strong, then when we gather enough energy, the warrior can stand in the face of family detached and at ease.  This is the point where recapitulation and the predator throws it all in our face.  Our natal patterns are comfortable.  It’s enticing to return to the womb of our mother culture.  Once we have removed or disconnected the patterns from ourselves, it is in relationship with those individuals that offers the deepest recapitulation possible… to not get trapped in the comfortable patterns that are ever present in those who do not recapitulate them.

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Randomness and Order

Randomness and Order

What can be said about tragedy?  As a spiritual warrior the word compassion is often used.  We must have compassion, but must we?  Is that freedom?  Compassion to most ordinary people is pity.  It is a sham ability to separate our selves from the experiences of others and secretly believe we are better, above or untouched by tragedy.   Compassion of a warrior is freedom.  Freedom, when we look deep into it, makes us aware that the universe if filled with random events and experiences, which change on a dime the directions we take.  Compassion of the warrior is the awareness that we are all equal in the face of infinity and freedom.  We are exactly the same.

The warrior does not feel the loss of a people half a continent away.  That drama is drama of the highest kind.  It is the drama of the poor-boy syndrome of self-importance.  Rather the warrior knows that tragedy is a daily event everywhere and is bound up not in the random acts of violence but rather how we respond to the everywhere randomness of the universe in all its mystery and wonder.  We can’t be responsible for the randomness of the universe but we can be responsible for our response to it.

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Plant Allies – a Pathway to Shifting the Assemblage Point

This blog has avoided sacred plant medicines for a very good reason.  They are a trap, like so many pathways of knowledge, they give with the right hand and slap you with the left.  But recently there was an opportunity to watch a ceremony of just such work and it propelled these words.

Carlos Casteneda noted in Conversations with a Nagual that if you are going to do a sacred plant medicine, better have a Don Juan there to make sure that you are not falling into the pitfalls of self importance.  The ruthlessness of the guide or road man or medicine man is essential to ones practice.  There is a good reason that Carlos later turned and denied that this path was a stable one for the warrior of freedom.

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2012, Deep Time and Recapitulation

If there is anything that we can learn from the Maya obsession with the cycles of time, it would be recapitulation on a grand scale.  The Maya counted and kept track of 20 calendars or cycles of time.  Many were connected to the pulse of the planets wandering the sky, which they saw with the naked eye; pretty easy to do when you don’t have street and city lights.   The smallest circle of time is the day, and then through a succession of differing times related to number patterns they had a 260 day calendar.  The sun moving through the year and Venus’ transit through an 8 year cycle all contributed to ceremonial cycles that allowed the Maya to reflect on what was, be present to what is and to wonder what was to come.

The long or deep count calendar has a 400 year ticking period with 13 of these adding up to a very long progression of time.  Maya pointed to Dec 21st 2012 long ago for the simple fact that it aligned with events occurring during a reference point in the 9th century.  This was the height of classical Maya culture.  This was a time of kings and shaman dominating the political and economic landscape of the forests.  The Maya had developed many of the things we associate with advanced culture.  The study of the calendar, astronomy and the cycles of time was not the privilege of the many.  It was the few that concerned themselves with this or even understood.  Like today, physicists and astronomers spend hours understanding the universe, but not many average people spend that much time on quarks.  And yet it is the work of those few astronomers that helped the Maya stay in tune with the pulse of time and the cycle of ceremony.

Dec 21st 2012 is an inevitable conclusion to a calculated set of time cycles.  It just marks a tick on a greater scale than a year or a Venus cycle.  But at the same time, the Maya celebrated and ceremonialized specific things when these cycles clicked over to the next start point or to zero time.  They fundamentally shifted their view of the world or attempted to shift to a new paradigm in alignment with these long count cycles.  The last 400 years has seen a number of amazing things.  As a Toltec warrior, I see this as an appointment with power on a global scale, an appointment which requires recapitulation… and one that as a society we could benefit from deep reflection.

The last long count moment, the end of period 12, was 1610.  What an amazing point in history.  Galileo had proved that the sun was the center of the system.  This was the beginning of the real split between religion and science.  But concurrent with this was the rise of the middle class, the development of banking and the idea of factories and industry being a key to doing work better or easier.  Printing and books were developed which led to newspapers.  Energy demands shifted.  It was a lack of wood in Europe that drove industrialists to venture more boldly into the newly discovered territories to create things, which would come back to feed European dominance of the globe.  Though this is a Euro-centric review, it should be noted that it was the Eurocentric model that was exploding across the globe with trade and dominance over other parts of the world.

And so it is the shadow side of European culture that also spread across the world.  The pressure cooker of centuries of dynastic wars mixed with an obsession with the one true religion which in and of itself was breaking apart.  This conflict ridden, self-glorifying, self-important spirit of superiority spread like wild fire across the globe.   It would eventually be adopted by every culture throughout the globe in some way or another.   In 1610 this expansion had moved past its initial stages of introduction of disease to the new world and into pure socio-economic dominion of the world as a whole.   This model of the taker culture in combination with a drive to shift our energy use and abuse has led to the very point we are in with history.  We are a global dominator community.

In the past when something did not work for a culture, that culture died away and the people left to go somewhere else.  They left, moved, shifted and recreated themselves.  The Maya were no different.  They up and left their golden age of kings from which the long calendar was discovered.  They did so for the survival of the very people that were living within the confines of that out-moded pattern.  Leaving a broken system is a time-honored tradition.  The Chinese dynastic succession had a similar pulse.  When the people were suffering too much, the dynasty fell, someone rose to new power and shifted the capital to another location.

Today our global community interconnected by communication lines, commercial global enterprises and global issues of the use of energy and economy is at the height of which the seeds can be seen from 1610.  In essence nothing about those initial stages of the enlightenment has really changed in the past 400 years.  We are simply using the same pattern but now all over the globe.  The takers who spread over the world dominating the earth and sucking her dry of her resources so science and industry can consume our world has succeeded.  The takers have won.  There is nowhere to go.  There is nowhere to leave, run off into the forest, cross a desert, or travel to the next moment to start with a new pattern.  The only way to truly change is to recapitulate the very pattern in the place we are at as a globe.

And such is the real gift of the discoveries of John Major Jenkins the 2012 scholar.  He has found the real reason we need to pay attention to Maya deep time and to the cycle ending date of Dec. 21st 2012.  That we must take a deep look at the patterns of our culture, economy, global banking, the factory model, scientific dominion, and in general what it means to be a human community in the earth.  We need to recapitulate as the Maya did giving up that which no longer serves the greater good of humans and life in general.  We need to learn how to leave, to let go, to destroy so the next cycle can create a new paradigm of possibilities.

Toltecs recapitulate patterns and discover energy that is trapped in old patterns.  We search out that energy to help us re-focus our energy towards freedom and awareness of possibilities.  This critical time offers us a moment to build up to.  It offers us, if we look at it from a Maya perspective, a time to sacrifice that which no longer serves us.  To un-bury the hidden bundle which is deep within the earth (aka our connection to the earth)  and look at our relationship to energy.  Then it is time to leave the taker mentality and create something new, free, more aware.

This is not something that governments and banks and industry is going to do.  No they are stuck in the pattern of doing the same thing because it has worked for 400 years.  It is something that arises from all people individually.  It is a global ceremony of letting go of what does not work.  Voting with feet… or really our energy, dollars, work, loves, homes, values and choices.  Taking the bull by the horns, every person in the world can affect change through seeking out those patterns and destroying what no longer works.  Recapitulate, pull the energy away from those patterns… for it is not the endings which we are reminded of in these times, but what are we going to do with the beginnings…..?

The Eagle

For greater reference, see Carlos Casteneda’s the Eagle’s Gift before reading this account…

Recently while working with a death and dying individual, I saw with extreme clarity the Eagle, its workings, and its nature.  Still reeling from this experience I became exceedingly frightened for hours afterwards.  But as the minutes past, I realized that it was not me that was frightened but rather the part of me within, the foreign installation, that was scared to death of seeing what I saw.    The simplest explanation is that the Eagle is not self-reflective.  It just does what it does without consciousness as we can know it to be in freedom.   It injects self-reflection  with the foreign mind into our species to cultivate this as food for itself.  It is in no way personally involved with what it is doing.  It just farms us for tasty morsels.  This is very similar to factory farming our animals for food.  The great sin is to become personally connected to that which is your food… don’t name your food!   It does not name us, nor is it personally interested in us. 

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Assemblage Point Part One

 We are, most of what we know, the assemblage point.  This bold statement is not a random one nor one whose goal is to create a new religion, philosophy or science.  Religion, philosophy and science all fall within the bounds of the assemblage point.  Even these words and anything we can say or share about the current band of awareness is within the assemblage point.  We do not have an assemblage point, we are the assemblage point.

This knowing has been held for generations.  Seers, scientists, artists and warriors of perception know this not as a fact but as a truth.  This truth is the reality of experience, a direct understanding of how the universe of perception works.  It is created moment to moment by all of us and each of us founded on the heaps of being which defines our constant shining across the vast line of potential energies that are there to be perceived.  We organize energy by gathering it together.  Functionally clamping down on energy with awareness and perceiving creates the drama of the self-imposed on the constant dance of potential.  Every perception manages and manipulates our demand on the world as we choose to know it.

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